I don't like feeling this way. Sometimes events, people, and attitudes just start building up, accumulating to the point I can't take it anymore. But the negative side of me provokes me to allow it to build up, because letting it out could potentially cause more pain than keeping it in. Because sometimes I doubt some folk really care how I feel, or can't even tell when I have been hurt.
I don't like confrontation, but I desire to pride myself in not being afraid of it. But I can't. Because I think it could make it worse.
So instead I need to let it go. Maybe it will go away. But many months later, it still hasn't.