Finally took a picture

Of the veil that I've made. It still needs to be blocked and then I must brainstorm how exactly I can use it as a veil for the wedding of which I keep forgetting to set a date (i hate calling folks and i need to call the pastor and i'm nervous cause i haven't seen him in about 8 years).

That's really all I have for today.

"Health of the Mother"

I may be showing my true blood radical conservative here when I put this one up. I was pleased to hear McCain bring this phrase to the light in Wednesday night's debate. (I didn't watch. for some reason I find it healthy to play violent fantasy video games during debates and other political events so in case I get mad I can smite the evildoer with my paladin anyways).

I am pro-life. I do not agree with abortion being practiced in any case at all, save LIFE of mother. Yes, this is a difference. People can look over the difference between "health" and "life" just fine, but there is a difference. It is the matter of definition and what sort of loop-holes people can find.

You see, health of mother can cover a plethora of different issues from sickness to mental illness... and even "I don't feel good about having this baby." Sure there are actual health problems that one can have when having a baby and the life gets put in danger. That is why there must be a distinction between the two.

My position on abortion is not something I debate often. I have researched the issue thoroughly and I have found there is substantial evidence that life begins at conception/implantation. This is why I believe abortion is wrong. I'm not totally sure about legislating it. If anything, it's the states decision if at all, the government should butt the hell out. If it was me, I'd never have an abortion. In any case. When it is life or death though, that will be where the true decision will lay. That I don't know... and I think I will reserve that judgement when the time is right.

I am not militant. I think bombing abortion clinics is hypocrisy. I think shouting down women outside of clinics like "don't kill your baby" is extremely judgemental and all in all a bad idea (i've heard of a woman who had just had a miscarriage come out of one and had that shouted at her...). It is a very touchy subject and needs to be treated with the utmost care.

But still, arguing over health vs. life of the mother is a valid argument. Health is very broad, life is not. Life is more important in the end. Isn't that the point?

I am a very bad blogger

Because I don't keep my promises to blog more. I mean, how horrible I am!

So today, as I sit down with my Beef and Broccoli and Code Red Mountain Dew, I contemplate the theories on how to be a better blogger. Perhaps I should share with everyone my latest writing, but as I am always uncertain about publishing such things to the masses without trying to get paid for it first, I delay that possibility. Perhaps I could talk about politics...

Well, yes I could talk about politics, but my mind forming coherent thoughts on the election that just will not end for long enough time to write it down is slim to none. I know who I'm voting for, I know who I'm voting against... and that sometimes I just want Obama to lose to make someone annoying cry... but that's mean of me, so I don't let my thoughts dwell on that too long. I don't like being mean.

I could talk about knitting, but I have a hard enough time keeping ravelry updated with recent pictures of my work and what i'm working on... that and i keep changing up projects frequently lately... oh well.

There has just been too much on my mind lately... how my work status is hopefully going to stay stable, but no real telling... how the economy could even change that... how the election itself could be the make or break of my company and my job stability... and oh my God, I really need to get cracking on calling the Pastor and nailing down the church for the day that I want. *sigh*... probably should discuss with philip and the folks what time would be best in the day to have the wedding and then start actually doing something about it... for once.

*sigh* I really want to blog more, I do. But I can't promise anything about keeping it relatively up to date. I will try, but no promises this time around.

Until the next time...

My muse returns

I don't like feeling this way. Sometimes events, people, and attitudes just start building up, accumulating to the point I can't take it anymore. But the negative side of me provokes me to allow it to build up, because letting it out could potentially cause more pain than keeping it in. Because sometimes I doubt some folk really care how I feel, or can't even tell when I have been hurt.

I don't like confrontation, but I desire to pride myself in not being afraid of it. But I can't. Because I think it could make it worse.

So instead I need to let it go. Maybe it will go away. But many months later, it still hasn't.

Just a Note

I indeed did say I was going to try to keep up better with my blog here, but I keep forgetting to take pictures of my work and such. Today I decided on one "secret" project to change exactly what it was and use one pattern and make it bigger. So far, okay, but I think I've goofed up a bit in the 3rd row of pattern... which can just prove irritating... need better light to fix the problem than is provided by my apartment (usually... I can have more light, but it glares through my tv and we can't have this when I want to see the next part of the story in Philip's game).

I started a twitter, but I think I'm going to have that stuff ported to my LJ... other than that... nothing too much new other than finally got the air filter changed in my apartment and I'm going to be swamped tomorrow at work.

Time to get back in the groove...

Of blogging that is. I probably should try to allot time each day to blog something about what's going on so I remember I have a blog (and a livejournal, and myspace, and facebook (which miraculously I can never forget I have because "PuzzleBee" is bloody addictive)).

Since I got engaged back in July, I have been doing quite a bit of brainstorming for my wedding, only the only work I have actually completed has been the purchase/order of wedding gown and bridesmaid dresses. I started two knitting projects, a garter and a veil (pictures will be in a future blog) for it which are both 90% complete. All I have left is final rows on veil and binding the loose ends together, blocking, and various other needed stuff. I've done a lot of searching things online and came with the only church that I could find to actually have stuff about getting married there on line is Manassas Baptist. Back in the day I did hang out with some of the youth group folks there (when I was that young... yes it's possible), but I never really had a good experience with those folks. Thankfully I don't think I have to worry about that anymore, but I have to wait til October (6 months away from April 4th, the date I want) in order to see about reserving it. I still need to call my pastor (C.J. Benner) to see if that date works for him and if there is a way that I can have Philip meet him and say yes to the prospect of him marrying us. If you're wondering, Philip hasn't said outright no to any of these ideas I am mentioning... in fact he's okay with the date, doesn't seem to care about the other two... but most of all, he's kind of more focused on getting school stuff done, and is not usually in the mood to discuss wedding planning.

I'm thinking I would prefer to go with some local companies when it comes to flowers, invitations and some other things. Philip and I like to support local businesses whenever we can (yeah, this involves me with local yarn shops and splurging too much, but lets not get into that.)

Speaking of shopping, I'm trying to do a moratorium on buying a lot of new things like I have been. No yarn shopping for a while for me (unless it's necessary for gifts and the like) and cut down a lot on my manga buying. I have a lot of money on my two wachovia cards I want to trim down into no debt on before I get married. Unfortunately, the easiest way for me not to spend money on those two cards was me getting a new one to use for gas, groceries and other essentials. I've already broken some of this not wanting to spend alot because of DVDs I needed (well, really really wanted) and probably because there is a manga sale at Borders... oh well.

Anyways, that is all to sum up for now... I probably should get back to my desk to look like I'm doing some work and/or finish the veil knitting. So very close!

10 Random Things

First - oops, forgot about my blog. I will try to get back in the habit and posting. Have a bunch of rambles and knitting I can show off too! And now for the substance of my silly post.

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Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 random things, facts, goals, or habits about yourself. At the end, choose 10 people to be tagged, listing their names. You can't tag a person who has tagged you.

1) I've always wanted to write and publish a novel, but every time I get close to the end, either I get bored, can't figure what else to write, or something "semi-traumatic" happens to my work that makes me lose heart... this has spilled over into other forms of my storytelling.

2) I am extremely happy to be engaged to Philip... and hope to get everything figured out and set up to marry him on April 4, 2009.

3) I believe that enjoying and partaking in fantasy is not evil or bad. I believe it is a quite fun release. So long as you are able to separate fantasy and reality, you shouldn't have a problem.

4) I am a compulsive beginner of projects... hardly ever to actually finish. Until I learned how to knit.

5) I plan to knit my own garter and veil. Both are 10% away from being completely finished. They were started within the months of July and August.

6) My company is in a bad financial situation, resulting in at least 3 employees quitting and moving on to different jobs.

7) I didn't care for John McCain as a candidate. I was a supporter of Fred Thompson earlier on. Now I'm actually excited to vote for McCain-Palin.

8) I never thought I would like anime or roleplaying games. I was wrong.

9) I've never been good at making friends, until I started dating Philip and met his friends.

10) I've always viewed being a good friend as not being afraid of telling them the truth whether they wished to hear it or not. This has gotten me into some quite uncomfortable situations that have eventually worked out for the best in the end.


And I tag:

bah, if anyone wants to do this, go ahead... I hate tagging folks

cross-posted to my blog.